Why is it that whenever i get onto joeuser i feel differant. People on hear make me feel stupid. I feel like i don't belong and that i am too young. Sometimes i just want to give up joeuser all together and go back to my life before this. I wonder a lot of things like when people say they want to go to hell because heaven can't be that great cause god made this. Well i talked to my mom about this cause i wanted her input on this. She made a good point she said "well god didn't make this. God made man and man got to do what he wanted with this. Also god knew that it wouldn't be perfect and there would be fighting and etc. But he did it for the good, for us to have a chance." Then i don't know what to do when they say this about heaven when i get back on. I feel like i dunno what to say in response. I needed to say how i felt. I dunno what i want to do right now though. I have talked to one of my friends about this Alex. I thanked him cause he did help me. I was wonderin if anyone else has ever felt this way and what they have done to get through it. Cause at times i can't take it anymore and i just want to scream so loud. I know that won't help so i am seeing if this will. I don't know why i can't stand it either. I can stand a lot of things but for some reason this really does bother me .
~blondelife